We are now in the 15th day of our 21-day fast. I don’t know what kind of fast you are on, we have been on a water only fast during the day and having a vegetable broth soup at night. This fast has been an amazing journey spiritually; God has really been speaking to us. At the same time, it’s not all been serious here at our house. There have also been quite a few funny things happen. Around the 5th day into the fast I noticed my brain was not working as well as it should (some might say my brain activity is usually missing a connection). I began forgetting things easily. I went to the store and forgot multiple items and returned 2 and 3 times just to get what I had forgotten. Write a list? I would forget that I wrote a list.
At lunchtime yesterday, my daughter wanted a cheese sandwich for lunch. I was happy to make her the sandwich and clean up afterwards. Later on in the day, I went to the kitchen to get a pair of scissors that I usually keep in the utensil drawer. When I opened the drawer, I had a great laugh – I had left the cheese in the drawer rather than in the refrigerator. Fasting brain we now call it, and we had a good laugh.
Yesterday’s entry had to do with not worrying about fitting in with this world’s way of doing things, a lot like cheese doesn’t fit into the utensil drawer. Fasting certainly is stepping outside of wanting to fit in with what is the “sensible” thing to do. Sure, some will fast for medical reasons or to follow a diet plan that only allows eating during windows of time during the day (this is called “intermittent fasting”). But fasting just to hear from God? How can we explain that sensibly? It’s plain and simple; we aren’t sensible people to this world.
1 John 1:5-7 NKJ “This is the message which we have heard from Him and declare to you, that God is light and in Him is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin.”
We’re told to “walk in the light.” Whose light are we told to walk in? The light of our feelings? The light of our opinion? The light of our family’s bidding? There’s no light, no direction in any of those places. If we walk in the light of feelings, we will change direction daily. If we walk in the light of our opinion, we will be prone to instability as our opinion changes with circumstance. If we walk in the light of our family’s bidding, we will never live out our own destiny.
Living out of any sense of obligation, be it obligation to family, friends, or even our own feelings, is living out of a sense of duty. If we live this way, it’s easy to explain to others the reasons for our actions.
Explaining living in the light to others, even fellow believers, is sometimes difficult, as living in the light, living in obedience, often cannot be explained. God won’t usually give us answers to our questions when He reveals His will to us – He simply wants us to follow directions.
Acts 9:3-18 NKJ “As he journeyed he came near Damascus, and suddenly a light shone around him from heaven. Then he fell to the ground, and heard a voice saying to him, ‘Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting Me?’ And he said, ‘Who are You, Lord?’ Then the Lord said, ‘I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting. It is hard for you to kick against the goads.’ So he, trembling and astonished, said, ‘Lord, what do You want me to do?’ Then the Lord said to him, ‘Arise and go into the city, and you will be told what you must do. And the men who journeyed with him stood speechless, hearing a voice but seeing no one. Then Saul arose from the ground, and when his eyes were opened he saw no one. But they led him by the hand and brought him into Damascus. And he was three days without sight, and neither ate nor drank. Now there was a certain disciple at Damascus named Ananias; and to him the Lord said in a vision, ‘Ananias.’ And he said, ‘Here I am, Lord.’ So the Lord said to him, ‘Arise and go to the street called Straight, and inquire at the house of Judas for one called Saul of Tarsus, for behold, he is praying. And in a vision he has seen a man named Ananias coming in and putting his hand on him, so that he might receive his sight.’ Then Ananias answered, ‘Lord, I have heard from many about this man, how much harm he has done to Your saints in Jerusalem. And here he has authority from the chief priests to bind all who call on Your name.’ But the Lord said to him, ‘Go, for he is a chosen vessel of Mine to bear My name before Gentiles, kings, and the children of Israel. For I will show him how many things he must suffer for My name’s sake.’ And Ananias went his way and entered the house; and laying his hands on him he said, ‘Brother Saul, the Lord Jesus, who appeared to you on the road as you came, has sent me that you may receive your sight and be filled with the Holy Spirit.’ Immediately there fell from his eyes something like scales, and he received his sight at once; and he arose and was baptized.’
Saul, later the Apostle Paul, was told to go and wait. At that moment, he had no other explanation offered to him by the Lord. He was blinded by this experience and was led “by the hand” to Damascus. The scriptures say that those with Saul didn’t hear the voice speak as Saul had. I wonder what Saul told them and what their reaction was. I wonder had he known the future that was about to unfold in front of him; of the rejection he would face by the Jews, near-death experiences, imprisonments, and finally death for Christ, if he would have been so quick to obey.
I also wonder if it isn’t out of the great mercies of our Father that He does the same for us. Only revealing to us the things that we are able to bear for the moment because He knows we are made of dust.
Psalm 103:14 NKJ “For He knows our frame; He remembers that we are dust.”
Do we remember we are dust? Do we remember that His ways go far beyond ours and that He has the big picture in mind? Do we trust Him when He speaks, understanding that our ideas take a back seat to His because he is so much smarter that we are?
For His ways cannot be explained to even ourselves. This is why it’s so easy for believers who obey to be misunderstood and ridiculed – because how they live is unexplained.